I guess it's time for me to blog again b4 my usual nappies since it's maintenance time for fiesta. XD Had been fully made used of my time on fiesta like again. ><

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Shudn't be onlining now but i guess if i don't take a rest from my study, i will have mushrooms popping up~ three weeks of exams. That is freaking long. 7 more days and 10 more hours to go. XD Haven't been touching fiesta since last friday. I am so damn eager to play BUT!! i am determined to not play until next friday 12pm. LOL

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Ughh…. Two hours limit of online time per day is painful. So that’s why I hadn’t been blog since the stupid report card day. Why is it so? Cause my dear mum set the stupid rule right after that day? If u say it’s because my results r terrible? IDK~ maybe. Hehe I myself actually think my results really are quite terrible but with surprisingly the class position is nt as bad as I expected it would be. So am nt that worry and that’s why I call the rule stupid. XD

Since it’s only two hours time per day for me. So OF COURSE I use fully used up of the two hours on playing fiesta. Hehe. I know I know I am way too addicted but I just cant control~ It’s getting really fun~ And I keep finding wendy to play with me so we can ‘share’ the fun but she didn’t want to. T^T so starts singing *lonely~ u am miss lonely~ u have no body~ for my own~. *ahem ahem*

So..the masquerade was a failure..to me. Its super disappointing. Eventhough I said I am reade to be disappointed but c’mon…it’s way more terrible than I expected it would be. T^T Totally a waste of the ticket money and my dress. >< And it was really boring that day I feel so stupid sitting there. Hehe . And I am so glad I brought my psp although I might look totally stupid and geeky there sitting playing psp but nah~ who cares! XD

And bout why am I so free here blogging when I only have two hours online time, it’s because today my internet got problem and cant online so I am here sitting and typing to update my pity blog. Wohoho~ And btw now my eyes are glued to the tv and watching this Malaysia melodrama. Like seriously I know it isn’t that nice to critique own own movies but hey c’mon.. it’s like all the Chinese melodramas are like so melo-ish! XD I mean why do they have to be so negative everytime? Why does they have to be killing, raping, fighting, dying all the time? I really don’t like these negatives movies. We already have so many bad things happened ‘real’ life so why do u have to make such negative and sad movie summore. Swt max…

Ok, I shud stop of the ranting now. And so sorry for no photos on the masquerade. Didn’t really have chance to take a proper picture. >< K. GTG and I will stop here. Sweet dream everyone~

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A lot of things have been going on lately, i am quite busy nowadays. My birthday (yay me), orals, activities and now even freaking exam is coming. Hate it..

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Finally done with my chinese vampire oral. I was really excited since morning but i also got really nervous because thr was like so many pairs of eyes watching and staring at u. It went quite ok. At least the musics and stuffs work perfectly. But it just that. I used so many days and efforts in doing this freaking slides and even go find tons of gif images as background to catch their attention but they didnt seem really interested.

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I feel really sad today, sad for my classmate or should i say 'friend'. Maybe we are not even consider as friends since we never talk to each other before. Even if he is not my classmate, for sure, i will still feel sorry for him. His father...passed away. I didn't believe this at the first place but after seeing the small piece of black cloth pinned on his sleeve, i realize this isn't just rumor.

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Today, I am kinda emo. So that’s why my title became so weird. I really don’t wanted this but I really feel down and I just cant control my feeling. I don’t know why but I have a feeling that tells me a lot of the teacher who teach me doesn’t like me, it feels like they are against me. I wanted to b an invisible person in the class but it looks like it will be impossible.

I feel really no mood to go to school these days. It feels like as if I have lost interest in studying. I always wish why cant I am in the D,E,F class instead of being in A or B class. I really doesn’t like to be in the front class. Ppl will keep comparing u and they will be like because you are in the front class, u should….. and u shouldn’t…..And I will be thinking like: Front class students not human is it? We cant make mistakes is it? We cant act like a normal person is it? We cant have a few slow learner like me is it? WE CANT EVEN GIVE OURSELF A BREAK IS IT!! It feels like f*ck you la! We are in the front class doesn’t mean we have to act like a robot ,everything have to be perfectly done, or should I say like a DOG? Obeying every single instruction you teachers gave?

How good is it that if I were in the last class, then I could probably argue with the teacher whenever the teacher said something that pissed me off. If front class students ever do that, in the next second, u will b definitely sitting in front of the discipline teacher.=_= Its really not fair. Why everyone has to go to school where almost everyone hates to go to school except some nerds-who-would-die-if-they-missed-out-school-for-a-day. But of course, i have to admit sometimes school is fun,but only when friends are around.This is the only good thing in school and which is also the best part of being in school. I think if without friends, school is like a total bullshit. We can juz choose to be home-schooled or something. I know this would sound ridiculous but i wish i were one of the girl in ancient china. LOL

I know I sound really terrible but tis is really how I feel right now. I know I shouldn’t say this kind of things especially form 5 SPM is next year. I shouldn’t give up after so many years of hard work. I should have give up earlier. Like during primary one.LOL So… I guess, no matter how I hate school, I will still have to continue on and I shud do something to make myself ‘love’ school again instead of hating it so much. Which I doubt if it is even possible. I am still kinda down right now.Haiz.. I dunno how to save myself liao...

Studying=students+dying (credits to Vivian) This is so damn correct.

Forgive me on my emoness.Juz for today, I hope.

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Fifth day in my new school. Line still nt stable yet.  Damn xian. Yeah, new school.. damn stress when my classmate tell me so many freaking geniuses in my class. T.T I don’t dare to see my result liao. I am quite happy that both my maths teacher r v gud here. Mod maths teacher very gentle and addmaths teacher so damn funny. But then physique teacher always shootshootshoot and then ask u understand ha? And then its like everyone nod. So, am I just the dumb one? I really cant understand anything he said. T.t…

A veli big gud news here is just when I thought that my ‘flame’ towards cosplay will slowly disappear once I come to Bintulu but who noes, there is someone like me here. She is also very interested in cosplay and I get really excited when she suggests why don’t  we create a cosplay club here. I am so damn thrilled and when she asks the other girls in the class, they all seems very interested oso. But what I am worried is if the principal is nt the ‘open’ type of person then it will be quite hard for him  to accept this request…. So I think mayb we can apply for  Japanese club instead of cosplay club . that way, I think its more acceptable and we can oso do cosplay mar.

I am so thrilled right now that I can even imagine what would it be like in this Japanese club, cosplay session, props making session, photoshoot session, Japanese fashion session and so many many more. But I am quite worried cause everytime whenever we planned anthing until like very serious and excited, at the end either one will give up or being cancelled bcuz of sth sth. Like my spd plan, code geass plan, alice inspired gothic plan so..i really hope it wont be like this again cuz I really want this so much.

I guess I will stop here nw. l8er~

*I feel like hitting the backspace bar but after struggling for like 5 seconds, I manage to control myself nt too. Butbut… this post so many mistakes lo.but..aiya.. don’t care la.*XD

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After such a long time i am finally back for my bloggie~ unbelievable. I was so damn, no, I am still damn busy.everything came crashing together in one time. Chinese New Year, form 4 suckish biology, addmaths, physics and chemistry, transfer and blablabla. Before chinese new year I was sick and bzing going out shopping for clothes. Then my ex-form 4 maths teachers  r so damn sucks that I have to spend my precious time everynight studying everything all over again. Then after chinese new year I was bzing packing my stuffs and then now I am in Bintulu.

The hotel’s internet line here is really terrible or is it my laptop’s problem? IDK. I am just really damn pissed and I asked the hotel ppl to check for me already and yet even them dunno how to fix. And I am here, living in this hotel, attached to the ‘biggest’ shopping mall in bintulu. U noe, like citytel and midvalley that kind of things. And the most I can do is :”haiz..” this shopping mall is as big as the tesco near the curve there. And I haven’t finish yet. Cut the size of tesco and paste it into three storeys then tahdah…that’s it. Spend 10 mins can already finish walking the whole shopping mall liao. And yet the shops here is really minimum and imagine we were to stay here for weeks and everyday we have to go thr or the kopitiam outside to look for food. Grr…oh, or sit in the hotel and eat cupmee..hmm.nt a bad idea..

Ok..new school. New faces. T.T I wan to go bac to bu(3) la..i miss my frens. First day of school,nt really that fun. Not many friendly people will come and say hi to u like how it was in bu(3). Again..i miss u guys..t.t. And once again, I am forced to go to the first class. It’s damn stress u noe! I don’t f**cking want to go to the first class la please! Hmm.. first impression? Almost 90% of the students in my class looks really nerdy to me, doesn’t look like sweet 16 at all. Nah, isn’t a gud thing. *shake head in disappointment* It had been 2 days ady and I only have one ‘friend’. T.T..so pity la me. I cant believe thr’s only less than 5 ppl that actually said hi to me when I first enter the class. I still remember while form2 in kuching it’s also like this. Only form 3 in kl, whr everyone is so friendly.Hmm..surprising. When I first enter bu(3), almost half of the class said hi to me and treated me extremely nice. T.t..ok..one last time.. I miss u guys..uwah~~~

I believe if the line is fixed, I will be blogging more often cuz I am quite sure that thr will b much to complaint about. ><>

Till then.XOXO

(i dint post the photos up cuz i scared after two minutes the line disconnect again then i wont even get to post this up liao.T.T)

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Yay, Pmr is finally over. I noe my yay is a bit too late.Haha. Cuz once pmr over i started playing games like mad cow so didnt update lo. Anyway, i am so not confident in this exam. I dont think i am lucky enuf to get straight a's like primary school. And btw, i always think that they mayb typed in the wrong result for me for my upsr cuz until nw i still cant really believe i can get all a lo.KakaAnyway, what done is done.I go langgar the wall oso wont change anything.

Juz nw, i received a call from my primary classmate. And a boy somemore. We used to b like gud buddy in a group of four. I was quite surprised to receive his call. And he so== lo. Guess wat he said the first thing. He said, wah, how come ur voice change so much. U sounds so gentle and soft. So  i asked bac, why? i used to b very fierce last time meh. And he mumbled,u used to sound like Dai Ka Jie(like those big, fierce,muscular,women boss).Then...deng deng deng deng. I shouted at him, u wan me to beat u up is it? And my trueself reveal. Kaka. 

Of coz no la. I so gentle one.Kaka. Ppl grow up liao mar, mature liao mar.cannot meh. But then it does feel weird for having a boy to call u up and gossip like girlfrens. And i am that type of person who cant do like what most girls do,talk non-stoply on the phone until the telephone started to burn still wont stop one. I always cant think of topics when talking thru the phone, Even with my best pal, Karia. But then, this boy is like super talkative and finally able to stop him when mum calls me for dinner and i was like 'phew~'.My ear ady start sweating lo.

But it really is a happy thing to know that ur primary best fren still rmb u. And which i had always wish to get bac to Miri and meet them but  i dont hav such chance. I really miss my primary frens who had all went thru 6 years primary life with me. 

And today, my school is like so..==. I cant believe we juz finish pmr( nt spm ok? ) and the school actually invited a college lecturer(i guess?cuz why would i pay attention to him la) to come and talk those wat college la and wat school la.we all sit till butt bcome flat liao .lol.This still nvm. The worse is,i am so 'lucky' that in the 'lucky draw' session, i gt picked. Even buy toto 4d oso nt so lucky la. And i am asked to arrange the cutlery. I can feel my face burning when i walk up lo.And then after arranging the cutlery, the lecturer actually said a lot of stuffs. But his 'Inglish' is very hard to understand so i juz mm all the way lo. And wow, i gt a 'prize'! Its a brochure! How excited is tat. And i was thinking like 'um...yay?' haha.

Till here then. ciao. 

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Recently, i gt a new fren. Actually we knew each other since the very beginning of the year. But we seldom talk. And lately, bcuz of some reasons, we started talking to each other, and bcome quite close. She is a very nice person. All though sometimes she act like a baby, she is a lovely one. But at the meantime oso, i lost one of my really close friend. We used to be really close, but suddenly, she don wan to talk to me anymore. I ask her wats her prob and she never wan to answer me and everytime she ignore me like i am invisible.

I noe u will b reading this. After u read, i hope u can tell me the reason next time we meet. If u r angry cuz past two weeks i seldom accompany you during recess time, tats bcuz i hav to do the mural in my class and u noe how lazy i am to go downstairs whereas i always bring my own food. Or else, i really cant think of any other reason that u could possibly be angry with me. If u don want to tell me the reason, how on earth am i going to noe wats wrong? Even until the day i die oso don noe la. == I get really tired of all these.

Sometimes, the minute i enter the school and i remember of all these stupid frens thingy, (not only u la ,but other frens oso) my heart sank. I feel really 'xian' to go to school. Everyone have their limits. I might give up on u if i reach my limit. But i juz want to tell u, u will always b my best fren.

Hmm... enough complaining. But still.. i wan to complain sth else. XD... trial exams on Monday,. Someone.. save me. SO scared la. I don wan exams la. Afterward the result come out like shit la. T.T and then and then afterward need to go cut hair somemore. T.T..my life~

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Hmm... tmr will be our curriculum day. Which means our glee performance is coming soon. I feel kinda worried nw as i scared the performance will b as bad as our rehearsal. The rehearsal is really a disaster. It is so damn embarrassing. And i feel so terrible after the rehearsal. I hope tmr our performance will b really gud.

I am kinda excited for tmr although our performance is juz going to b few minutes. And this is the first time i will b performing in this school and also the first time wearing casual clothes in front of everyone and of course, the first time wearing make up in school. I noe it would be kinda weird to wear make up in school and thr will b a lot of ppl saying a lot of stuffs but who cares. I noe we r going to hav fun a lot of fun tmr. Yay~~~~

Juz nw i went to watsons and bought a few cosmetics. And i bought for my frens the hello kitty limited edition maybelline mascara. It looks pretty cute. And i also bought face powder and majolica lip gloss for her. For myself, i only bought a majolica liquid eyeliner and lip brush. I like the eyeliner, pretty nice.

K then, i guess tats all for nw. Kthnxb. Btw, wish us luck for the performance tmr.

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First of all, when u read this, plz stand up. Then slowly open ur mouth to an 'O' shape. Then gently put ur palms close together. Then.....cheer !and clap !for me. Yay..two posts in a week. Haha.. Thanks to Karia, go and sleep so early and leave me behind. SO bored here. NO one to chat with. And my connection is like super slow that i cant even watch my movie properly. I watch one movie load from afternoon till nw almost midnite liao still couldnt finish. So...grr la.

Today, i actually found out that a lot of my classmates actually blog. I nvr expect that. U noe, i mean they doesnt look like tat type of ppl who will blog. XD I hope they would nvr find my blog unless for those close fren. I dont mind letting strangles to read my nonsense but i mind letting family, especially brother.== and those 'frens' cuz i noe i am so going to die if they read my blog and found out that i said sth bad bout them. Actually most of the blogger doesnt care bout tis but i am really scared. What if i write sth like i like somebody and my 'frens' go and tell everyone. Thats oso why i nvr put camwhore photos on facebook and delete all those 'frens' when someone tag me. Cuz i don wan those ppl to think like oh, tis girl so wat one. But of coz if u r pretty and confident nvm la. But i am neither pretty nor confident. SO..haiz...

Recently i dreamt a lot of weird dreams. But i nvr get a really sweet one like i am a princess or a barbie. Oh, no. I did dreamt bout barbie. Haha. Its a very long time ago one, i dreamt that i was one of the fairytopia barbie, those with wings one. And my boyfren is a handsome mexican actor. Lol.I noe i am kinda childish but i enjoy being childish sometimes. But of coz, i don usually reveal my childish side in school. Only to those v close fren la.They will noe how crazy i can get.

Hmm.. its getting late. Nitez everyone. Sweet dream.

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Yay, its weekend again. Can stare at the computer as long as i wan again. lol

Anyway, i get pissed by a few ppl this week. U see, complain again. haiz.. i still remember i complained bout the stupid science teacher last time, nw i get pissed by her again. That day we were at the science lab mar. and she always( like everytime) ask student to pick rubbish one. then tat still nvm. That day, after she asked us to pick up the rubbish, she keep staring at my group's table. we were all they popping question marks above our heads. Whr the hell still gt rubbish la. And she juz keep standing thr, staring. she din even say, point or walk here and show us! After like we give up finding that only-'clever'-ppl-can-see-rubbish ,So she ask my group to walk to the table and c from thr, FINALLY, we saw a f**king plastic bag hanging below the table thr. AT that moment, i was so pissed that i wish to scold her, u wonder ur legs broken that u cant walk here or ur hands broken that u cant point or pick up the garbage urself or ur mouth cannot even open that once u open, a toad will jump out from thr that u cant even say whr is it. U think ur eyes very pretty is it, stare stare stare.Shit u la. This.. is the WORST science teacher i ever had.

Then today, we were suppose to paint our class for the national celebration mar, so my friend drag me to go get turpentine from the teacher. Then we were like very rush so when i reach the art room, i saw no teacher thr, so i walk into the room and was going to knock on his resting room door but then a guy thr, with two girls start scolding me like why u so impolite one, u donno how to knock on the door meh and what u wan la, u so rude one, why u dont ask first then come in. What u wan!! like tat wo.. if he say properly still nvm. he said until like he is the owner of this room and he v geng like tat wo. So stupid idiot la him.Cant u see i am in such a rush? and did i bother u? keep flirting with the other two girls la, i am finding my teacher. Just F"ck of to the side and mind ur own business la. U think u v handsome or wat. I can only say i feel sorry for ur parents to hav such a child! Phew~~ it feels better after i blurted everything out. Although i noe i gt wrong too but he is soo...tat one la.And u really get so pissed in these situation especially when u r in a rush.Who the hell that boy think he is la. U think the world turns around u ar. ok...enough. XD

Anyway, i gt a good news, all thanks to Karia. Muackz and huggie 1000 times. If u din gave me such good ideas for my chinese novel, i wont get in the competition. Love u! I was actually really surprised when teacher told me i gt in. I always have great interest in chinese so i get really excited and happy. Thanks so much. Karia.

K, then.gt.Muackz.

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Today is my school canteen day. A bit different with my old school which we were always force to buy coupons and come with parents and go bac home in 10 mins after u simply use up ur coupon on useless things. I have to admit that tis is the most fun canteen day ever although the stalls is like so little that its nt even 2/10 my old school one.

But this school is quite creative. They have haunted house. Which is the main attraction. Almost the whole school was queuing up for the haunted house. Of course my fren and i did oso. We r actually quite lucky coz we gt the number 99 and the last group to enter the house is 100. So..lucky~

Butbutbut... i am such a coward that i chicken out last min. Cuz i actually went to haunted house quite a few time before but i never went to one with the ghosts pretended by ppl. So very scare mar. And then when its like 10 more groups before us, I saw someone in my class cried after she went to the haunted house, so my 'confidence' and 'excitement' started tumbling. Then slowly slowly after i finally build up my confidence and excitement again, i saw my fren, another one, like scared until face pale pale like tat and sit at the staircase thr, so, this time, i really scared till don wan go liao. Cuz i am always scared of these ghost thingy. I am quite sure that i wont b able to sleep if i went in. So, i let another girl replace my place.

Although it seems such a waste for nt going and i feel a bit regret for that. And everyone say until like wa... so nice. so fun. But i am still glad i choose nt to go. Cuz if nt, i will have panda eyes for at least one week. Ya.. hmm..and i ate quite some food. And another fun thing is we played games in class like speed,mafia and truth or dare. its so funny when my fren choose dare and we force her to dance and second time we force her to 'flirt' with boys. Nt exactly flirt la. juz like wink at the boy. And then it was so funny cuz the boy was like..huh..huh?? wat happen?why tis girl keep blinking at me. XD

Haha.. k la. Thats all for today. Nitez~

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Finally its holiday. One week of exams really make me stressed like hell. I couldnt use laptop, i couldnt watch tv after 7, i can only read school books. And i have to stay up late the whole week until like 12 or 1 o clock and then wake up 6 in the morning. And during the third day, i kind of like no mood study so i go and sleep without finishing my studies,which is the two most difficult subject for me. geo and history. Hell ! almost the whole paper i tembak.So scare i turnout to b the lowest one. I so damn regret that i didnt stay up late.

Although its nw holiday like woohoo~ yeepee~, i kinda dun hav any idea what should i do . So damn boring. B4 holiday, i felt like i gt damn a lot of things wan to blog. But nw,i forgot everything liao. Kaka . So ,ya. tis is gotta b a damn short post. But i promise i will update more during this holiday.

Ciao. Muuuackz.

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Today is quite a bad day for me. During breaktime ,i usually hang out with one of my close friend. She is a very nice person but v quiet sometimes. Today,she suddenly don’t talk to me. I wonder if I did sth wrong and make her angry without I myself even realizing. Its freaking weird to see the one who usually talk to u doesn’t want to talk to u but talk with other ppl instead and u juz sit thr doing nothing like an outsider. I hope everything will b ok tomorrow.

Then, my f**cking stupid science teacher really piss me off, again!!! Last time, she did sth and make me really feel like want to punch her in the face. I remember during the first few months, I personally tot that she is a quite ok teacher until one time,she ask us to pass up a stupid book to her on the next day but I am going on a trip so I passed my book to my fren and ask her to help me pass up. But then, she forgot!!! Then DC, who oso din come pass up with me during the next week when we gt her lesson and guess wat, she gav me a C. A f**cking C. If in usual time,I wont care bout the grades teacher gave us, but this time,tis stupid score is going to b include in the test, so, DC go and tell the teacher we pass up late bcoz we din come and guess wat she said,no cannot. I don accept. I really wan to slap her when I hear tat , such a ‘kind’ teacher she is. I wonder why the f**k this stupid school hire this bitch.

Then slowly slowly, after months, she seems quite ok as she dun do bitchy stuffs at least nt to me,so I tot mayb I shouldn’t think of her like that. But noi was wrong ,she is juz as bitchy as always. Juz nw, she asked us to do some experiment paper work. So,of coz thr will b some slow writer,rite? So when the time all of us pass up, the bell oledi rings and its time to go home. And she still purposely left the checking after the bell rings and slowly check book by book and make those who doesn’t complete stay bac(including me) without saying where u dint complete.She said she don care bout who will miss their transportation. And after 14mins, we finally done after cracking our brains thinking wtf we haven’t complete. I still nvm but she makes my fren miss her transport. So,she owe me another slap on her face. Or wait, she can choose a step on her bitchy face.

And the third unlucky thing is, my sandwich bread for tmr school lunch is eaten by my brother!! He nvr ask b4 eat one wo. But nvm la, since he muz had starve a lot when he is living alone. Hmm, so I will generously forgive him one time. But my perfect plan. T.T. I plan until so perfect every meal’s bread. I divided everything until sososo and then he..he..he…grr…

Haiz, going to stop here. Hav a good day tmr (to me too).k thanx .bye.

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Finally, thr's an 'adult' who understand us. My english teacher at my school,i will say she is a v frenly and open-minded person. She can accept all these cosplay and gothic lolita things when my fren DC and me tell her all about these things. She seems like v interested and she is diff from other teachers who will look at us in the wat-the-hell-r-u-talking-about expression.

As u guys noe,i mentioned my fren and i wanted to get our own club so badly and wats in our mind is,mayb we can get a foreign country cluture club thing. Like we learn wat europeon or russian ppl wear during the ancient time. Then every half a year, we will hav a themed ball like china ball,or victorian masquerade ball. Ughh..i wan tat so much. T.T

And today, while we r chatting with the super duper frenly teacher bout some er..organizing special costumes day in school, the teacher seriously like our idea.And bcuz she is a english teacher, so ya,everything or activities she do muz related to english ma. So, she told us thats she really like our idea for the costumes thingy, and she said it would b a great idea to organize a western-country-ancient-time-costumes fashion show during the opening of english week. My fren and i get so excited while we heard tat. OMG~can u imagine, u get to wear the pretty aristocrat costumes in the school! or u can wear sth like hetalia military uniform. Although its too bad we couldnt make it until everyone wear like tat the whole day, its gud enuf to let the very close minded old man in our school to allow us to do the fashion show.

I am getting so excited out all tis fashion show thing. Hmm, i think if tis idea really accepted by that old man, hmm,i think i will wear sth like...hizaki's dress(form versailles) but then i bet if i wear that in school, all the ppl will b staring at me in the 0_0 expression. haha

Grr..its about timeto choose wat to cosplay tis year ady,but i still cant choose between c.c or euphemia. T.T..someone,help me.XD

K,am going to stop here nw. Wee~fashion show~XD..Muackz and ciao.

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Its one day before my birthday. Which also means that its one day before the audition. My legs bcome shaky, my voice bcome shaky. Omigod omigod. Should i flee, should I?yes or no. I really don hav much confident in myself. I scare if i go to the audition, i will throw my own face. I scared ppl will think like..ee..tis girl sing like hell and she still dare to come. But if i flee, it makes me feel so stupid, since u already sign up and u practice so hard so wats the point to give up nw. Wat should i do? Be more courageous and go to the audition, if pass then yay if fail then try again next time. Or b a coward and flee. So that ppl will nvr say bout how lousy ur singing is. Haiz.. tell me.choose for me.

I noe..i noe..its only such a stupid damn small thingy. Its nt even a competition, juz a lil, no-big-deal club audition. But i juz cant help myself from feeling nervous,scared. Its my first time to sing in front of other ppl. How can i nt nervous? Tell me. The more i listen to my own singing. The more sucks i think i am.T.T

Why does it hav to b exactly the same date as my birthday. I rather it to b a few days earlier or a few days later juz nt exactly the same la. Shit. If i pass, oz coz it would me a double happiness birthday. But how if i fail? It would b such a sad birthday for me. Mayb i really should flee. Haiz...

Everyone,do wish me happy birthday tmr. XD and dont forget to pray hard for me to pass, IF i din FLEE. Juz..haiz..hope so. Its one day b4 my birthday! i shouldnt b sighing here. I shouldnt have stuffs to worry. The only thing i should do is wait excitingly for my birthday. And receive tons of warm greeting from my frens and family, rite?

So, i promise i will b cheerful even if i fail. SO, don care liao la. Nw, i will 'happily' online, 'happily' sleep. And 'happily' wait for the brighter tmr. XD

I'll stop here nw. Muackz. Hav a gud day tmr, for u,and for me. *wink*

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