T.T... i really hate school~~i hate school----------

Haiz..don say bout my stupid school anymore.Ima, cosplay cosplay!!
Well,i plan to go for cosplay this year. But i am worrying bout a lot of things nw. Such as...who should i cosplay, contact lens(T.T..this is what i worried the most), make up, cosplay group, and etc.

1) the contact lens, i should wear contact lens la,but then i am realy scare to do so. As u will get what eye disease if u wear too often and then u hav to b very careful when u wear, if nt, afterward accidentally cut ur eyes then u will b blind.T.T..i wan to wear so much. but i don hav guts to wear. Such coward!!

2) then, bout the make up thingy.my make up skills sucks..sucks until everytime i put on the eyeliner then i will looks like too over. and i am nt free enough to practise make up often. Kara suggests to go saloon but my fren said it will waste a lot of money. Hope i could find a fren to help me make up tat time.

3)i am actually planning to cos luka from vacoloid the sand play dragon version. I quite like the song and the costume!! nt only me, but kara and my fren fall in love with the costumes on the first sight. Those r damn nice one. But i gt a prob nw is. They don hav a SPD cosply group for the event at the moment and for a newbie like us, it mite b very boring to go without a group. Kara suggests me to go 'open' a group but then i don think i can manage to do so.So haiz, wish me luck that a SPD group will suddenly pop up soon.

A picture of an awesome SPD cosplay group.

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I am so XIAN today!!! Ok nw, tat WL is making me impatient and angry. Everytime we met i even try to say hi to her but then she avoid me. Then still nvm, yesterday MY and i met her and MY was like dragging her so tat we can talk, but then she even scolded My like, 'wth r u doin!' Then i get so angry so i juz walked away.

So, i told MY tat since tat Wl don wan to talk to me then don expect me to talk to her anymore. I don care losing such fren. I don mind. So watever nw. I will think tat i nvr noe u. And MY is like always trying to explain to her since MY is the one told WL tat thingy so mayb she kinda feel guilty or wat. So i told MY tat she don hav to explain to WL anymore cuz i don really care nw. But then MY still went and explain to her wat plz don treat cherry like tis, she already felt so sorry.And the thing is, i don feel sorry! at least nt anymore. So,i guess everything between WL and me will end here. Wow, i think i sound like talking bout my boyfren huh. Kaka.

And today, we hav the other club meeting. I was actually so excited tat i can spend my time with my ex-classmates again but then...i really regret joining tis club. I joined tis club bcuz tat time everyone thr is joining tis one. But wtf la, why don they send me to the right class at the first place. I feel i belong to my current class nw. At least i nvr feel left out here. Juz nw at the club thr, i was like so left out. i've just transfered nt enough one week and our relationship is already like..break ady. How sad is tis. Then i was like so idiotly following them around and my only present classmates is like so....so... quiet and we don hav much things to talk. I tried to mix in but then, i cant really mix in. At that moment, i felt like so lonely and so sad. And i almost cry.

Since i start to transfer school, last time form two oso like tat. I always feel like wanna cry whenever i feel lonely. Why would i become so weak!! But then i always manage to forced back my tears. At that moment, i really miss MY and her gang. They nvr ignore me and they r so nice to me. When MY saw me, i looked so sad and pity then everyone in the gang is like, come come, let her sit la, she's so pity. Then *** come,u r this uniform one rite, nah, afterward u must take care of her o. She's new and she don hav much fren. I was like really touched by them but then they shouldnt said tat i am pity la altot i am la, but if thay say it out loud like tat i will feel more pity la. lol

Ha... U guys r really my best buds nw. I plan to change my club to wat MY r joining nw. Hope that i can find some teacher tat r willing to help me.

Haiz..gotta off nw. My dear mummy's keep nagging me. Wish me luck.

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Haiz..how come the whole thing will turn out like tis. Ok, i told my fren the whole thing on the next day and guess wat they did. They go and tell tat WL that i think she treat me too nice which make me gt a lil scare of her. Well, they probably did this bcuz they think they wanna help me which they didnt but just make things worse. They could say things like i think she treat me v nicely but nt i am scared of her!!!

After they told her the thing, she somehow seems like mad at me or wat. IDK!! i am totally out of idea wth is going on. When i ask Kara for opinions, she said i can either choose to pretend ntg happen or go apologize to her. I was planning to choose choice one which is to pretend ntg happened, But then, when i met her during break time, she pretend like she didnt c me and just walk away.

Ok, mayb she really didnt c me. Nvm then. Then when school finish, i met her again. And she pretend she didnt c me again and walk away. I think she actually was about to greet my fren bside me but when she saw me, she just turn away and walk. So, i asked my fren if she looks angry when they told her the thing. But then my fren said no. Then why she kinda avoiding me? She said tat it mite just bcuz she don wan to scare me again so i wont b mad at her or she don wan me to hate her. But... Wl's expression doesnt looks so.

Haiz..i donno.i donno!! I wish i can rewind the time so i wont b so frenly to her during the curriculum time and then all this stupid and nonsense things wouldnt happen. But, that's definitely impossible. So i guess i will juz let things 顺其自然。 And..everything wounldnt happen if i don imagine things. Haiz..hate myself. *punch**pinch**kick**slap*

I am sooo tired. *lights of*

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Today is the fifth day in my new class. Everything's quite ok nw. I finally met someone who like anime very much, and an awesome coser. Well, its very excited for me to find a coser. Cuz it would b so cool to hav a coser friend. XD

The first day when i go to the class, and when the monitor is trying to find a place for me to sit, everyone's like pretend the place bside them is nt available (although it is available) and so, the monitor throw me to sit in front of the teacher ALONE. But luckily, thr's a very nice girl come and sit with me. So, she's my first fren. I would name her cc. CC is a very nice and 'funny' person. I like her.
Then,i met MY who like anime v much like me and nw i always hang out with her frens. They r all v nice. Then, i met DC. The coser. She's a very nice person oso.

When thr r good guys of coz thr will b bad guys. A lot of ppl told me nt to get too close with JC and TC. TC is a very rich girl whose father even build sth at the school. And is sth sth of a huge supermarket. They said she will get along v well and treat u v nice at first, then she will betray u and make u kind of 'suffer' by saying bad things and make ur reputation 'drop'. Ans she even investigate u b4 u go in the class. When last time i try to be nice to her. She kind of ignore me and seems like she dint like me. So what, rich nia mar. So i decided i am nt going too near with her. While JC i think...is still ok. They just said she very mean and proud. But at least better then tat TC.When i talk to that JC ,she's still ok. At least she smile when i talk to her (although her smile looks very fake) but at least better than TC.

Today i hav my damn curriculum day again. I don hav much frens who join this club. When the club bout to start, i walk around to look for my fren then WL saw me. I know her through my frens. She ask if she can follow me then of coz i said yes. She's a very nice person and she's v 主动（which i think is too much). Everything still ok b4 we were asked to gather around the basketball court and its damn hot thr. She stand bhind me and then suddenly she take of the coat and i tot its bcuz she's too hot. But then, she use the coat to cover the sunlight for me and herself. I know its probably jus bcuz she's too nice but then i was totally shocked when she did tat. If she's a guy still ok. But..she's a girl. It kind of make me think tat is she a les or wat. Then i feel like i wanna get away from her as soon as possible.

But then when i try to ignore her and go along with my frens, she would come and said can i join when i leave them for nt even one sec. And i kind of feel guilty to ignore a person and think of her as a...when she actually treat u v nice. So i was stucked with her the whole period. I am nw v scared to go to the curriculum next week. I dont wan to c her. I just hope she will find that i am nt actually a nice person and wont follow me around. Wth did i treat everyone so nicely at first place. I should treat some of them 'ruder' .T.T..

I know its probably i am the one who think too much. But then..Its really v scary when a girl treat a girl too nice. So girls, don treats omeone too nicely or else u will b asume as a les. Omygosh..T.T..how on earth am i going to escaped from WL. Anyone..save me---------

* I think probably i am juｓt the stupid one who think too much. But then i just gt a weird feeling of that WL. Mayb just bcuz i am nt used to ppl who r too 主动. But after considering, i still think that i dont wan to spend my time with her. I should avoid her as much as i can.XD. T.T.. still feeling v weird bout this.

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Well,i wonder... Why would i have such a sucks school life.Everyones is like so peaceful and bff stays bff until ur high school life ends. But mine change once a year.Well,form ones school is nice.It is big,and lots of fren from primary school. Form two's school is nt as big and as cool as the form one school, but at least they dont hav some very stupid rules.

And now,my form three school... it's the suckiest school among three of them.And which,i think i will stuck there until my high school ends. Why is it so funny one, the school i studied is like suckier and suckier and wtf is tat i hav to stuck at the suckiest school for the longest time.

Well,thr's some reason tat i say tis school sucks.

1. Thr hav some stupid rules like students are nt allow to stay at class during break time and all the students can only eat at the canteen which is so small, hot and crowded. They r so stupid one. If they want student to eat at the extremely small canteen, then build a bigger one la.

2. They force all the students to join the curriculum then still nvm. They force all the students to buy the uniform which is so expensive. So obviously they wan to 'eat' students' money.

3. The class has so little fans which make it damn hot during the noon time.

And then nw somemore i hav to change class bcuz of the stupid 'life skill' thingy course. Sth i like bout tis school is my current classmates. They r all so nice and wat i will call is very 'warmth'. And nw becuz of tat stupid course thingy , i hav to change to a class whr all the ppl said tat some of the students thr are quite proud and a lot of ppl don like them. I really wish to stay at the class but it seems like i am nt allowed to.

And then the curriculum juz nw is so... stupid and irritating. Well, the group is too big then juz split us into few rooms la. And then those stupid teacher (i really don noe wth r they thinking) they ask us all to sit on the grass thr. Which so many insects crawling and flying like spiders, red ants, and all those lil lil insects. ewwww!!! U try to sit here urself la. Ask us to sit thr without even considering one.

Haiz and T.T. Tmr i will hav to leave my classmates. I really feel so reluctant to leave them. Which i nearly cried (i noe i am weird. XD) when the teacher said i cant stay at the class anymore. I really like them although i hav only spent 3 days with them. I juz wan to say to u guys tat u guys rocks and u r really awesome.

Wish me luck.Ciao.

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